One thing I have noticed about depression and anxiety is that it is not constant in a all the time sense. It is constant in the, "hey, you'll be fine for about 3 weeks then I'm coming in like Ray J and you are a Khardashian."
I struggled with the ability to bounce back, now I have it pretty much down to an art. A very sad art. Like a poorly drawn 1st grade picture that hangs on your refrigerator.
I try to figure out the triggers, the frustration and the general reason why I feel depressed at any given time. Playing video games used to pacify, but something in my brain has now associated that with anxiety. I'm kinda just a blob. A mindless person who just sits there like Homer Simpson.
Grasping at anything he can get to be motivated. Unfortunately it is hard to find, if you are depressed. Sometimes all you need is to someone to give you a tough talk. Everyone can be sympathetic and optimistic, but pessimism and cynicism almost always brings me out of it.
Unfortunately the world is not perfect. It will never be as long as the Big Bang Theory is on TV. But, the imperfections in the world, in people, in your own mind are what makes you human. That is what gives you knowledge. That is experience. We all gain from experience. Positive or negative, experiences guide you.
I'm not bold enough to make a move. I'm rather plain. That's me. I try to survive everyday, I try to struggle with the fact that I will never live depression free. Sometimes, that is okay. Those moments when I am not I feel unbeatable.
That is what is truly scary for the rest of the world and mental illness. There is no true cure for it. Pharmaceuticals can take that numbness away. But, at the end of the day you are still depressed just running on a pill.
Social media has one thing in common. People feel anxiety, people are uneasy. It does not have: people willing to talk about anxiety and what causes it. Because it is a "weakness".
I'm vested in social media because I can get lost in it. It is a trigger at the same time, because when other people feel like shit, I want to take on what causes their feeling so they do not have to anymore.
So, I'm out of the depression after about 4 days.
It should be back in about a month.
I'm fine, until next time.