Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Today's thoughts

Or are you? Today I feel as if the mood of your mind is set day by day. It always is. It is the severity.

Logistically, everyone starts Tabula Rasa (Blank Slate) when they are born. They are just waiting to be programmed. I would argue otherwise in terms of inheritance of behavioral traits.

You should be given everything to be able to remain a healthy and happy individual. In an idealistic world, that is true; However, what is seen at the surface is not always the case. It is all how you choose to look at the stigma that is anxiety.

For much of the last year, I viewed anxiety as a positive driving force. For the last 3 months. Any progress I have made with my mental health have been washed away. I am unable to look at life the same.

I miss those who are not here, and those who are here but not near me.

Mental health is fickle, often it is dictated by random occurrences in your life. How you react to a bad mark on a test, somebody being sick, somebody passing or just general day to day feelings.

I personally do not believe my issue lies in talking about my anxiety, I know where I stand. I know how to deal with it. Taking a year of psychology was both a blessing and a curse. I know more about the feeling of it and know too much of why it may be caused.

It is something that should be dealt with on my terms. This time of year is particularly bad, because I am not sure where to turn. What to do most of the time.

I got some of what is building up on paper/text. I will write a little more detailed blog about that 3 month journey, later tonight or tomorrow.

Thanks for reading, if you have any mental health related topics to throw towards me. You know where to find me

Thanks,
Regards,
Devon